taken....

saya sudah bergelar isteri kepada hubby saya selama 6 hari....

tapi hubby sudah nun jauh disana.... dah 2 hari setengah tak jumpa, sangat2 rindu...

berpisah seketika sebab dedua kena keje semalam dan hari ni....

dan sebab tu jugak saya masih tak sempat nak update citer pasal our wedding....

apepon, u all bole baca di blog my hubby, kak red, and juga kak nor (mummysyafie)...........

thanks a lot to kak red and kak nor sudi buat liputan penuh perkahwinan kami....

hehe...

ni tgh berkemas nak ke kelantan ni....

jumpa di sana............

get well soon sayang

the big day is coming...
i pray to god every single second,

may both of us be in a very good health...

so unhappy today, despite had a great time earlier with my families at WetWorld Batu Pahat...

my dear was not well since yesterday, and today he still is...

he's suffering diarrhea, and became so dehydrated,

unlucky he is oncall today..... pity him a lot....

and me somehow having a very bad sorethroat with mild headache....

caught up in heavy rain at wetworld, and it was raining badly all evening....

i need someone to hug me..... to keep me warm....

but he's also unwell... and far away....

please.... get well soon my dear...

and i'll keep myself warm in the comforter with our beloved baby stitch,....

i donna wanna get flu or fever... huhu...

dr... are u getting married???

salam to all................

salam maal hijrah............

well, today...

it's 1st muharram 1432 hijrah.... 7th december 2010

which means...

less than 2 weeks for me carrying the title single / cik/ miss...

in about 11 days time.... i'm entering a new episode of life...

a life that i've been dreaming for years.. but when it's coming nearer, i feel like trying to run away...

i just donno why...

am i scared??, no....

am i not ready yet???

i dont think soo

it's just a weird feeling, bugging me days and night....

maybe im a lil bit nervous...

yuppp... the preparations...

yeahhh... it's the preparation of the house that worrying me...

alamak, my room....

bed tak de lagi....

haha....

actually there are a lot more things bigger than these that keep disturbing my sleep

and they are seriously big, and complicated enough for me to handle,

but as the time goes by, i hope God will help me settle those thing...

the funniest part bout my marriage.... is when people look at han's picture in the card

.... " Dr. Shieda..... r u marrying Dr. Sheikh Muzaffar???? is he the lil brother of him???

.... " owh, patutla Dr.shieda maintain single jek selama nie, diam2 ubi rupenye....

.... " wah, muke cam adik beradik ler....

.... " hmm... handsome gak yer tunang dr tu.....

in the end of the days.... it makes me to think again....

am i marrying him because of that...

the astronaut look... ??? nope is the answer...

or because he is handsome??? haha, funny...

what makes me to fall in love with him in the first place was not the face at all.... ( im telling the truth)... (psst, but now i've to admit he memang handsome la... haha)

sooo what makes me so in love with him???

i love his charisma...

i love his confident.....

and from these 2, i found more and more positive values of him....

there are also negative one, but there's no a single human being that is sooo perfect rite...

we went thru ups and downs together.....

there were rainy days, but the sun is always there....

and after 7-8years knowing him.....

i believe he's the one destined for me...

it's all about time...

it's all about patience....

i love him... :)

hye.....

my dear frens and followers.........

i know i've been missing for long....

some of u must been wondering...

while some others can make their guess....

occay2... the reasons are so many.... and i dont feel like writing them all here....

you guys pon sure letih nak baca nnt...

but let the pictures above do the job ok....

i'l be back again later............

*** psst, u all semua adalah dialu2kan dan dijemput untuk dtg ke majlis kami nnt tauu... n pada sesiapa yg nak kad jemputan, can please give me your address early so the postmen bole tolong edar2kan nnt........ hiiii...

THANK YOU LOVE

Thank you for loving me
the way that you do
you've brought me more happiness
than i ever knew

Thank you for the joy you've brought me
right from the start
and for the feelings i have
for you in my heart

Thank you for your thoughtfulness
and understanding me too
and standing behind me
in all that i do

Apple the fruit

Question of the day............................

Do you really love apple???...

Do you really enjoy eating apple???

My answers would be like this.......

20 years back.....

there were no apples in my house....

no such imported fruits were there.....

mak abah cume ajar makan buah betik, pelam, durian, ciku... pendek kata semua yang local fruits aje.....

ooops... buah longan n laici consider local ke imported ekkk???

10 years back......

mak abah started buying apples, pears, plums, grapes, oranges

yet i still prefer locals except for durian....

and the only apple i ate was the Royal Gala.....

1 year back.....

abah dah takde.... dekat 9 tahun dah abah pergi...

mak masih ade.... and i was the one buying the apples for her....

yupp... the greenies.... her favourite one... together with oranges

and at this point i just makan apple fuji

ooh ye... the green apples was just for my apple pie masa kat moscow dulu2....

me and apple never had a good chemistry before.....

the taste is just so wrong for me..... dulu2 la ni....

and now?????

I'M a HUGE GREEN APPLE EATER................... RED Apple just so-so je la....

it's so weird to open the fridge and there's no green apple inside....

and i put them everywhere.... easy for me to grab when feels like having one....

in the handbag.....

in the car....

in my bedroom....

bla... bla... bla...

I'M so in love with APPLE..........................

Boowa and Kwala.....

Boowa and Kwala....
Boowa and Kwala we are
Boowa and Kwala.... we are!!!


this is the only song that plays continuosly in my head for the past few days.............

....doesn't sound good in the first place but listening to the song repeatedly, i found that it really soothing.... lalala....

and the sooo cute looking adorable boy in the picture is the reason for it........

the way....

“Sometimes there is no easy way out, but there is always an easier way out and a harder way out.

Choose wisely.”

What does love look like???

“What does LoVE look like?

It has the hands to help others.

It has the feet to hasten to the poor and needy.

It has eyes to see misery and loneliness.

It has the ears to hear the sighs and sorrows.

That is what love looks like...

choosing a guy

i had this conversation earlier with a fren... regarding choosing the right and the best person in life...

she'd married for one year and just divorced....

i cant find any lacking in her.... same goes with my other colleagues...
she's sort of the girl/ women every man ever dream of...
she's nice, very gentle and obedient, blalalalala.....

y divorced???
lemme keep it to myself.... pity her a lot...
she's not from semenanjung... travelled all the way, get her ass settled in this so called "bandar" muar to be with her spouse... unfortunately, things went wrong and she got no one close to her at all (i mean family/ relatives) except we all.... but nothing much we can really do to help...

and what did she said to me??? it's more like an advice from a sister to her beloved younger one...

" to choose a guy.... when u have few options in front...
choose the one that falls in love head over heels to you....
choose the one that really cares, who calls and text u no matter in what situation...
choose the one that answers your call and listen to you well....
choose the one that can be a good fren.... not a good boyfren.....
never choose a guy that from the very beginning u'r the one who do everything for him....
who left u alone when u cries... blablabla........


such a long advice that i cant really type it all here...
100% agree and ....
GIRLS!!!
if u'r looking for a guy, please get a guy who falls "HEAD OVER HEELs" in love with you ok!!!
so that later on in your future life, there's no such thing coming out from his mouth as... "sape yang terhegeh2 nakkan saya...??"

*** CHEERS!!!

and guys, please3....
when u say I LOVE U.... please prove it... please care about your loved one...
especially when she's feeling lonely and tell u soo... never let her goes thru all the pain and miseries alone... be extra loving and caring, and u wont regret it..... trust me!@!!!

Rose Gold vs Yellow Gold

everybody thinks gold must be yellow in colour....

yupp... it's true... pure gold is yellow..

but this pure gold can be turned into various colours by mixing it with another element....

by "alloying " the gold... yet the gold is still pure!!!

i'm sure each and everyone of us must have heard the term "alloy" atau dalam bahasa melayu adalah "ALOI"

so y do we need to alloy this pure gold....

can't we just leave them yellow, as most people like it that way...???

simple answer is that pure gold (24K) is very2 soft... therefore is not suitable to tie the diamonds all in order to make such a nice jewelry...

for example,

white gold---is an alloy of gold and at least one white metal, usually nickel, manganese or palladium. A common white gold formulation consists of 90 wt.% gold and 10 wt.% nickel.

Rose gold --- is a gold and copper alloy widely used for specialized jewelry. It is also known as pink gold and red gold. As it was popular in Russia at the beginning of the nineteenth century, it is also known as Russian gold.

The common alloy for rose gold is 75% gold and 25% copper by mass. (18k)

There are few more colored gold--- blue , green, purple, grey as well as black gold.. in which every one of them is alloyed to certain other elements/metals to make such colors....

Therefore, points to remember....
All types of solid gold are alloys. Pure gold smelt is much too soft to be practical as currency or for forming into jewelry. Even the highest grade of yellow gold is mixed with alloy elements so that it can be easily handled. Without this knowledge, you might assume that pure yellow gold is more valuable than any colored gold. This is not true. The value of every type of gold is determined by how much gold it actually contains. Therefore, rose gold that contains 18 parts of gold is just as valuable as yellow gold that contains 18 parts of gold.

Gold classifications according to karat...

• 100% = 24k


• 90-92% = 22k


• 75% = 18k


• 58% = 14k


• 38% = 9k

humm.... considering rose gold to be favourite collections....

risik2 kat kedai2 emas aritu, rose gold ni nampak lebih menarikk....

hummmm....

Saturdays---> me and my heart we got issues....

i love SATURDAYS
and today is saturday.....
me currently listening to this song < ISSUES >.....

---> just click on the picture to get u directed to the song ok....


THE SATURDAYS.................. Me and my heart, we got issues

Damn i wish that I could resist you

Can't decide if I should slap you or kiss you,

Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (Me and my heart)

Don't know if I should hate you or miss you (We got to work this thing out)

Damn I wish that I could resist you (I don't know)

Can't decide if I should leave you or kiss you, (can't decide if I )

Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (issues)

We got issues, issues, issues.

We got issues, issues, issues (me and my heart)

We got issues, issues, issues

Me and my heart we got issues, issues, issues (we got to which way to go)

Don't know if I should hate you or miss you

(I don't know)

*** addicted to this song on saturday....

biskut raya

i really miss this guy....

see how good he is at helping me....
he got all the passion that no one can really think of...


he's my bad boy at a time... but a good boy the next minute.....
he may jump out if things go wrong but will sit quietly to analyze back....
he can shut his mouth up for hours even days, but will start joking and giggling later
he knows when to please me
he made me cry but came back with roses....
he cooks me pasta and spaghetti, makes me salad and sandwiches....
he prepares the breakfast, do the bed...
he helps me choose my make-up forever without complaining....
he bought dresses and t-shirts for my lovely STITCH
he helps me with laundry.... shop for the groceries.....
he brought me for a walk after long tiring days been studying
he get me the best of all
these are the addictions..............................
its such a long list if i could write it down all.....
but certain things are best to be kept within.....

after all..... we are looking forward for our future.... may it be the best, God Willing... Ameen....

Pampering myself....

I should have done this long time agoooooooooooooo.... but never give a try...

WHY???

because of ignorance..... and i made a mistake...

now, i learnt my lesson...

not washing face properly for one year is seriously unforgivable..... huhu...

i'm so bad, and sooo lazy...

until the 1st "mr. jerawat" tumbuh kat hidung sebelah kanan early august recently.... been there for a month, size getting bigger extending to the central of my nose, and subsided only on the 4th week... the scar??? disgusting.... huhu...

then the 2nd one appeared on the left side of my nose.... already 1 week... and just about to say goodbye... huhu

definitely my face hated me now, for not been caring bout her for soo long....

there's no other way to say sorry than to give her a good facial treatment.... which i never experienced before....

so, here we are.... "Pusat Kecantikan SRI MAWAR Kosmetik"....

initially i went to MELILEA beauty center, but need to wait for another 2 hours to get the treatment... haha, just got no energy to wait anymore after been sleeping for only 3 hours last night (oncall la dear)... then, the nearest beauty center around that area is this SRI MAWAR

anyhow.... i enjoyed the session a lot... took nearly 2 hours, and i even fell asleep.....

so relaxing....

and my face now???

fresh looking, complexion get better and clearer, smoother, glowing 3x..

yeay!!!

the final result??? lupe nak snap la....
hehe... too happy lorrrrrrrrrrr.....

light dinner

things u need.............

• Rotini/ Spirals
  
• Tuna chunks
  
• Extra virgin olive oil
• tomato cherry
• Japanese cucumber
• Mixed italian herbs
• black pepper
• pinch of salt

just mix everything together.... and it's ready!!!....
less than 10 mins preparation including merebus the spirals.....
yummy2............

### can add diced onions, lime/lemon juice and lil bit of mayonnaise for extra flavor........

EMPATHY.............

Why suddenly i wanna talk about EMPATHY... (pelikkan???... cam tak interesting je...)
what does it mean???



"Empathy is the lovefire of sweet remembrance and shared understanding."






It's kinda hard to define the word, but to make it easy and simple is putting urself in anothers's shoes, be it your friends, parents, colleagues, your patients or your clients....

How do we do that????


some people think they have this empathy inside them.... but most of us naturally and some might forcefully only have sympathy towards others...


To show empathy is to identify with another's feelings. It is to emotionally put yourself in the place of another. The ability to empathize is directly dependent on your ability to feel your own feelings and identify them.





Why do we fail to empathize???


It's because u never experience such feeling, u failed and maybe u never try to relate yourself with that particular person....

If you have never felt a certain feeling, it will be hard for you to understand how another person is feeling. This holds equally true for pleasure and pain. If, for example, you have never put your hand in a flame, you will not know the pain of fire. If you have not experienced sexual passion, you will not understand its power. Similarly, if you have never felt rebellious or defiant, you will not understand those feelings.



so .... What are we going to do???
Is empathy so important in life???


The answer is................. YEs.. YeS... and YESSS!!!




Then, how do we show our empathy???

there's no way people can teach us.... we have to figure it out ourselves....
maybe more care towards your loved one???
maybe a social visit to rumah kebajikan/ rumah org tua....
maybe....
maybe....
maybe....


definitely maybe u'll become beautiful lovers and empathy towards all....
and interestingly, u'll find the true happiness behind the empathy.....

:(

saya agak kecewa dgn seseorang itu pada hari ini....
tapi tak mampu nak diluah....
semoga dia sedar dengan apa yang telah dia lakukan..........

MUSICS AND LYRICS

He's the music....

and i'm the lyrics......

He's the Hugh Grant... and i 'm the Drew Barrymore....

we can never be perfect if separated..... that's the beauty of MUSIC AND LYRIC.....

i'm sure each and everyone of u must have at least watch this movie once... it's a must for me.... cuz me myself at least watched this movie about 4-5 times.... and still never get bored,....

and what's the killer of the movie??? hero n heroin.... yeah!!! love 'em both!

definitely the song... POP!! Goes My Heart.... and Way Back into Love.....

plus the booty shake by hugh grant while he sings, which is very minimal yet the most exciting part for me.... hihi... y??? because reminds me of my hubby.... he loves to do that also tiap kali nyanyi or dancing.... :)).... no offense k yang.... cheers!!!

"All i wanna do is find a way back into love....

i cant make it through without a way back into love....

AND if i open my heart again

i guess i'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end.............

-------AND if I open my heart to YOU

i'm hoping u'll show me what to do

and if you help me to start again

YOU know that i'll be there for u in the end...............

These are for my MUSICS....

off to meet him tomorrow............ ya beda bedu!!!!!

Eid Mubarak...

Wishing everyone SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI>...

----Untuk kata-kata yang menghiris hati

untuk perbuatan yang tak disukai

untuk gurauan yang melampau

untuk segala kesalahan yang tak disedari dan tak disengajakan

untuk kerenah yang menjengkelkan lagi membencikan

MAAF ZAHIR BATIN jua kupinta.....

dari hati yang ikhlas...

hambar suasana raya.... tanpa insan bergelar ibu... tanpa ayah disisi....
benar hanya seorang ibu yang dapat memahami jiwa rintihan hati anaknye....
hanya ayah yang bisa menggembirakan hati tatkala bersedih
...............................
ku hanya menumpang kasih ketika ini...
namun ku ditatang bagai anak sendiri... walaupon berjauhan, walaupon tiada di sisi...
ingatan ikhlas di pagi raya adalah rahmat teragung...
terima kasih mama, papa...

Buat Mak dan Abah, semoga kalian bertemu disana.... anak2 tak jemu berdoa untuk kalian.... Selamat hari raya buat arwah yang telah membesarkan dan membahagiakan kami selama ini...
Al fatihah....

salam ulangtahun

jeng.... jeng... jeng.... got a parcel today!!!! a very special one....
daripada kekasih... untuk kekasih... ooopsie....
daripada bakal suami kepada bakal isterinya lah, sepatah kata my roomie.....
hehehe...
jom kite check ckt...


wrapped nicely.... with nice handwriting on it.....
yup, that's Dr.Han's handwriting.... very neat one rite....

quickly open it in the car.... and let's try it on....

perfecto!!!

it is gold, .... and is so stylish.... he know's what i like d most... .it bling2s into my heart.... and i can feel my heart bling2 inside....

alamak... not a good poser la.... nway, Happy birthday to me!!!

special thanks and a big hug for my dearest hubby for the lovely gift...

Many thanks to my frens for the warm wishes....

Hubby managed to be the first one wishing me advance birthday this morning and to sing me happy birthday song tonite sharp at 12 mn.... im soooooooooooooo happyyyyyy.... to my roomie dayah, awak terlambat ckt aje yang sbb sibuk sgt ngan laundry....

anyway, Happy2 Birthday to Dayah as well... she's one day older to me....

ok dear.... going to bed now.... daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa....

end of depression...

This is my "depressed stance."

When you're depressed, it makes a lot of difference how you stand.

The worst thing you can do is straighten up and hold your head high because then you'll start to feel better. If you're going to get any joy out of being depressed, you've got to stand like this....

However... this is another way to cheer up yourself.... works well for me... but later on, mengikat perut la sampai tggu next gaji... hehe... retail therapy la sayang....


bought this beauty 2 month ago in Parkson, MP Malacca

and this is another one, ... bought it earlier last monday at BP Mall, takut2 sedih nnt if got no gift for my birthday... hihi... actually to reward myself for being so patient, tough and strong thru all the hard time, thou sometimes tears did fall on my rosy cheeks.... but no matter how low i am at one time, i'll always put on a big smile...

dedi wt the cute lil baby

lil baby is looking for the daddy....

she saw this picture earlier.... taken long time ago,

she asked " mommy-mommy, where's my daddy.... why daddy always left mommy alone... why can't mommy and daddy stay together... why are we separated, and we are so far away.... i missed him mommy, sooo much... don't u?? "

n mommy replied " of course sweetheart, only god knows much i miss him all these days.... but daddy is working sayang, he got so much work and he's been busy day and night.... he misses u too... i hope... let's pray to Allah, moga2 daddy sihat, gembira, dan sentiasa mengingati kita berdua... ok sayang?? we'l stay together once mommy and daddy get married later k... mudah2an kasih sayang daddy pada mommy n baby takkan berbelah bahagi, ameen....."

and lil baby kisses me on my cheek, sweeps away all the pain and sadness....

selamat Hari Merdeka dari kami!!!!

missing....

us during CNY celebration, Feb 2008/ Moscow

i dozzed off pretty early last nite and was in 'mamai' state when my hubby called.... ala terasa rindu la sangat2.... called back and he was having supper, and he's actually oncall.... so cant really talk long la... so buat penghilang rindu, i just read thru all my all blogposts, how saddened that moscow currently tinggal kenangan... it's so far away.... but the memories overthere akan terus kekal segar dalam ingatan....

so sweet.............

hye my beloved readers....

presenting to u guys my other half that went missing for quite some times.... hehehe... it's not like he'd been abducted by the alliens or what so ever... it just that we rarely meet each other due to the distance.... ( yelah, sorang kat selatan ni, sorang lagi nun jauh di pantai timur... keje lak tak tentu masa... huhu)....



both are soooo cute....................

well, darling... u r looking great as if u r ready to become a daddy to a cute lil baby... i really heart this picture (plus u'r wearing the shirt i gave u... my pinky boy... i love u in pink... ).... hihihihi... practise banyak2 lagi ye yang dukung baby, senang nnt di hari muka....


love notes:

Years teach us more than
books.....

A wise man learns by the mistakes of others, a fool
by his own.

NO MAN WAS EVER WISE BY A CHANCE....

it is enuff....

baby girl is speechless... her heart suddenly stop beating, and everything turned dark a minute ago..... she cant breath, she cant talk, she cant think as normal..... everything ruined....



baby girl is now going to sleep.... hoping for a sweet dream thou her dream never been sweet at all.....



????? baby girl is definitely gonna cry again tonite.... and so on...... please dont ask her why, she just wanna let beverything out... and hope she'll get better soon.... perhaps....

slow and steady....

*** cure sometimes,

relieve most of the time,

comfort all the time,

do not harm at no time*** dr.shieda

it's really hard to start, after almost 2 yrs living without this blog.... how should i write in a proper way, in a real me??? i'm just afraid...., especially in my current condition... of what??? owh, definitely cant tell.... but i'm so lucky and feeling grateful to know that i still have a bunch of frens out there who really care about me thou we never met....

frankly, i got thousands of thing to share... 2 years is not a short time, it's a long journey... a newborn baby would definitely can walk and jump by now... can at least vocalize simple words, and for no doubt mesti dah tumbuh gigi sume.... :) yup, i'll write more often... don worry... but not tonite la kan.... hehe....

anyway, i just wanna take this opportunity to wish u all selamat berpuasa dan selamat beramal ibadah di bulan yg penuh berkat nie.... salam ramadhan...........

sendiri

terlalu lemah daku

letih dan lesu

sungguh, tidak daya ku harungi lagi

beratnya dugaan, hebatnya cabaran

ku sunyi, sepi....

namun apakan daya,

ku sekadar dipinggiran......................

noktah...