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Thursday, January 03, 2008

a confession from the heart...

""I have a right to my anger, and I don't want anybody telling me I shouldn't be, that it's not nice to be, and that something's wrong with me because I get angry..."""



i am just an ordinary people... i do have feeling like others...

i used not to talk, n not to cry out my anger....

pple shouted n raised their voice upon me....

while i just kept silence..... n all i could do is to cry... so helpless...

tears is my bestfriend.... they're very good friend of mine

i always forgive n let the thing goes....

this is me b4....





but afta quite sumtimes, i learned a lot from my silence...
u can't let urself b so small forever.... u need to voice out sumtimes...
n i did it awhile ago....only i did it with such an anger
n in a very inapropriate way...
i shouted... i raised my voice...
i am being stubborn maybe.... but thank god i'm not cunning
i just told u what i think i should...
forgive me... for me being mean to u....
now i regret myself, i feel sorry n i feel cold inside me...


now i start thinking....

is this really what i want all these time....

i have change a lot.... but i don't feel happy wt the changes....

i asked sumone... am i doing the right thing???

bcz now i seem to hate myself

what should i do???

i wish i could throw them away....

n be the old me.... who listens, shut my mouth, n jz follow what pple said....






7 love:

Mrs. Sheikh said...

God puts each fresh morning
each new chance of life
into our hands as a gift
to see what we will do with it..

p/s: jgn sedey2 sangat..

tiffany said...

i am feeling bad.... huns must be real mad at me, i hurt him badly wt my actions n face... n now he went out without me, that he never ever did b4...


shieda sedey n guilty sangat sekarang but dah x beguna....huhu...

Mrs. Sheikh said...

sy penah buat benda yg sama ..
thats way la i nangis2 selalu..
sebab takut dia marah sedangkan kite marah dia dulu..

yg penting skrg ni..biar dia cool dulu..bagi dia relax..
boleh? pastu pujuk..ckp elok2..
shieda jgnlah sedey sgt..
gaduh2 gini akan lebih mengeratkan hubungan sebenarnya...

tiffany said...

thanks husna 4 being there wt me @ this so miserable time... i really dunno wut to do, n m so so sowie dat i left YM bcz he's back oredi that time...

rite now, i just leave my fate to God... let the time goes n hope that everything will get better soon...

Princess Redbloodsnow said...

no ida...DON'T!
dun shut ur mouth n let pees do wuteva they wanted to do to u.
Bcoz if u juz let them...it will effect ur self esteem...

its okay to voice out wut we felt, lalink..
At least they know wuts goin' on inside us...
me too had done lotsa things dat make me regretted afta da damage is done...

it juz...sumtime we have to voice out our anger.

z paham pasaan ida skrg...bcoz believe me, i am used to diz kinda feeling. Be mad, jadik giler meroyan but in the when i cool down...z nyesal ssgt.

pape pown...i'm praying for everything will juz fine. hate seeing u sad arrr

:(

tiffany said...

i am totally rubbish rite now...
ida tau lotsa pple took advantage on my silence b4 n Huns is the one who give me all the courage to stand out of pple... but sumhow things jz turn upside down n sekarang ni ida dibelenggu rasa bersalah yg amat pada huns sendiri....

i'll do my best to fix everything back...

really appreciate ur words lalink...

mmmuahhhhhs

Princess Redbloodsnow said...

Iskkk...tersebak lak z bc
like me n adam arr...adm always giving me courage n strength but i dare to hurts him...not juz a lil, but hurt him a lot!!!

i really understand ur condition, lalink..i dunno wut else to say to make u feel better...

i believe u can fix all of it bck to normal

chaiyokkk!!! Chaiyokkk!!!

u n hans will survive this luv obstacle...trust ur heart n ur love, keh :)