end of depression...

This is my "depressed stance."

When you're depressed, it makes a lot of difference how you stand.

The worst thing you can do is straighten up and hold your head high because then you'll start to feel better. If you're going to get any joy out of being depressed, you've got to stand like this....

However... this is another way to cheer up yourself.... works well for me... but later on, mengikat perut la sampai tggu next gaji... hehe... retail therapy la sayang....


bought this beauty 2 month ago in Parkson, MP Malacca

and this is another one, ... bought it earlier last monday at BP Mall, takut2 sedih nnt if got no gift for my birthday... hihi... actually to reward myself for being so patient, tough and strong thru all the hard time, thou sometimes tears did fall on my rosy cheeks.... but no matter how low i am at one time, i'll always put on a big smile...

dedi wt the cute lil baby

lil baby is looking for the daddy....

she saw this picture earlier.... taken long time ago,

she asked " mommy-mommy, where's my daddy.... why daddy always left mommy alone... why can't mommy and daddy stay together... why are we separated, and we are so far away.... i missed him mommy, sooo much... don't u?? "

n mommy replied " of course sweetheart, only god knows much i miss him all these days.... but daddy is working sayang, he got so much work and he's been busy day and night.... he misses u too... i hope... let's pray to Allah, moga2 daddy sihat, gembira, dan sentiasa mengingati kita berdua... ok sayang?? we'l stay together once mommy and daddy get married later k... mudah2an kasih sayang daddy pada mommy n baby takkan berbelah bahagi, ameen....."

and lil baby kisses me on my cheek, sweeps away all the pain and sadness....

selamat Hari Merdeka dari kami!!!!

missing....

us during CNY celebration, Feb 2008/ Moscow

i dozzed off pretty early last nite and was in 'mamai' state when my hubby called.... ala terasa rindu la sangat2.... called back and he was having supper, and he's actually oncall.... so cant really talk long la... so buat penghilang rindu, i just read thru all my all blogposts, how saddened that moscow currently tinggal kenangan... it's so far away.... but the memories overthere akan terus kekal segar dalam ingatan....

so sweet.............

hye my beloved readers....

presenting to u guys my other half that went missing for quite some times.... hehehe... it's not like he'd been abducted by the alliens or what so ever... it just that we rarely meet each other due to the distance.... ( yelah, sorang kat selatan ni, sorang lagi nun jauh di pantai timur... keje lak tak tentu masa... huhu)....



both are soooo cute....................

well, darling... u r looking great as if u r ready to become a daddy to a cute lil baby... i really heart this picture (plus u'r wearing the shirt i gave u... my pinky boy... i love u in pink... ).... hihihihi... practise banyak2 lagi ye yang dukung baby, senang nnt di hari muka....


love notes:

Years teach us more than
books.....

A wise man learns by the mistakes of others, a fool
by his own.

NO MAN WAS EVER WISE BY A CHANCE....

it is enuff....

baby girl is speechless... her heart suddenly stop beating, and everything turned dark a minute ago..... she cant breath, she cant talk, she cant think as normal..... everything ruined....



baby girl is now going to sleep.... hoping for a sweet dream thou her dream never been sweet at all.....



????? baby girl is definitely gonna cry again tonite.... and so on...... please dont ask her why, she just wanna let beverything out... and hope she'll get better soon.... perhaps....

slow and steady....

*** cure sometimes,

relieve most of the time,

comfort all the time,

do not harm at no time*** dr.shieda

it's really hard to start, after almost 2 yrs living without this blog.... how should i write in a proper way, in a real me??? i'm just afraid...., especially in my current condition... of what??? owh, definitely cant tell.... but i'm so lucky and feeling grateful to know that i still have a bunch of frens out there who really care about me thou we never met....

frankly, i got thousands of thing to share... 2 years is not a short time, it's a long journey... a newborn baby would definitely can walk and jump by now... can at least vocalize simple words, and for no doubt mesti dah tumbuh gigi sume.... :) yup, i'll write more often... don worry... but not tonite la kan.... hehe....

anyway, i just wanna take this opportunity to wish u all selamat berpuasa dan selamat beramal ibadah di bulan yg penuh berkat nie.... salam ramadhan...........

sendiri

terlalu lemah daku

letih dan lesu

sungguh, tidak daya ku harungi lagi

beratnya dugaan, hebatnya cabaran

ku sunyi, sepi....

namun apakan daya,

ku sekadar dipinggiran......................

noktah...

Merah jambu

it's been a week.... yet i haven't got the time to update everyone bout our engagement... well basically it was just a simple ceremony.... no pelamin all, no fancy2 things.... it was between the two families plus few orang kampung aka kawan2 baik mak who came to help....

our side served special lunch menu for oghe2 kelate and kaum kerabat yg datang dari jauh... Nasi tomato yang seakan2 nasi minyak/beriani, ayam masak merah, acar timun nenas, dalca daging, fresh orange, and few side dishes.. (tempe tak dapat dihidangkan sebab pembuat tempe semua jatuh sakit sejak beberapa hari sebelum majlis, huhu, sowie ye abe mie).... lenkali datang we definitely served u all with tempe k...

with my colleague.... Dr. Ruben and Dr. Tan Tze Yin aka Cerlyn

so back to the story, pakaian adalah from my own collection.... didatangkan khas dari dubai 3-4 tahun lepas, siap dijahit juga 3-4 tahun yang lepas, di hantar ke kedai untuk dijahitkan manik2 and dikecilkan sedikit 2 hari sebelum majlis and siap pada jam 11pagi 9/5/2009. Pemilihan warna dan fabrik ketika di dubai telah dilakukan oleh my beloved fiancee.

Make up of the day ditaja oleh diriku sendiri, hehehe... solekan tu berharga RM 150 taww, kalau u all kata tak cantik memang la.... huhu... actually shieda saja try make-up kat sorang mak andam nie, namanya kak zie.... pemilik kedai hiasan perkahwinan Sha Na-Na kat Muar... so far memang puas hati except for the false lashes yang awal2 lagi dah terjungkit nak tertanggal.... apepon semua orang kata saya sangat santek pada hari tu... weeeeeeeweeeeeeee.... sangat2 hepi...

berbalik pada hantaran pula, since my baju dah warna pink maka haruslah hantaran juga sedondon ye tak.... (plus tikar getah kat rumah pon semua shieda tukarkan kaler pink.... :P~)

pihak laki punya bertemakan merah and haruslah mereka semua pakai kaler meghah.... 10 berbalas 7... nak cukupkan 11 atas dulang tak tersempat pulak so mak kata takpelah genap pon genaplah... hihihi.... yang paling penting hantaran pinkish ku itu semua adalah bekas tanganku sendiri.... jenuh jugak nak lekat2kan ribbon rende bunga segala macam but i did it within 2 days.... sangat2 puas hati.

owh yee, ramai dok tertanya2 hantaran dan tarikh langsungnye nanti kan.... hehe, Biarlah Rahsia....

The Ring

it's so sad since my work in NICU doesn't allow me to wear ring.... but as soon as i step out of the ward, i quickly put the ring back to my ring finger..... i am sure am the happiest ever girl nowadays..... i feel like shouting to the whole hospital that i'm already engaged... hence people won't keep questioning my status anymore....

ciuman buat Ma, thank you for accepting me seadanya....

di ketika itu...................... sila abaikan jari ku yang hudus itu yeee...

me tersenyum kambing while han maintain hensem... ye tak???

Tie the knot

I'm officially engaged...

yup.. 9th of May, may not be a big day for other people but it is for me...

even more bigger than Man Utd game i can say.... hihi, sorry dear...

took me thru chaos, yet ended up well...

so let's begin with family pictures ye... tanpa restu mereka tak mungkin terikat kami berdua...