HAPPY 5TH ANNIVERSARY

“On this our anniversary, we may not have wealth, but we do have each other and that is worth more than anything in the world.”

occay... what acually had happened on the June 26th 2003???

this is the first day we went out together... we went cruising by the moscow river... we went to Gorky Park ( a theme park here) and spent all day together.... saya hanya dilamar pada keesokan harinya, 27th june, and i din take much time to decide as i had mentioned before that i already had a crush on him since we were in INTEC, love at the first sight gitu... supposedly 27th is our anniversary but then we prefer 26th to remind our very2 first date....

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?

If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?

If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call

If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings

But I know you are here with me now

We’ll make it through

And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?

Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?

If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?

If you’re not for me then why does this distance made my life?

If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away

But I know that this much is true

We’ll make it through

And I hope you are the one I share my life with

And I wish that you could be the one I die with

And I'm prayin' you’re the one I build my home with

I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am

Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away

And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today

‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right

And though I can’t be with you tonight you know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it, I don’t understand

If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am

Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

and i still remember this song by heart.... (If You're Not The One by Danile Badingfield).... Darling sang this beautiful song to me over the phone... we spent only 4 days together before he went back for summer holiday in malaysia, leaving me here terkapai2 dalam mabuk cinta keseorangan bertemankan his voice terngiang2 menyanyi lagu ni untuk shieda.... and until today this song remains on top in my heart....

regardless of what happened, life goes on.... it turned out wrongly, and we both know nothing cud be done to mend it.... but we hope and we pray hard that this thing will settle, maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow but we'll continue hoping for the forgiveness.... what else i cud do, to mad at him??? to hate him??? this is sooo hard, and i love him more than anyone could, i live my life on him... He's the one that i dream to be the daddy of my children... and i hope what had happened really taught us something... Not everything is forgiven, and we have to deal with it....