love and trust

i miss my mom..... i love u so much mom.... i'm afraid to say u'r the only person who really knows and understand me....

"It takes a minute to have a crush on someone, an hour to like someone and a day to love someone but it takes a lifetime to forget someone."

"It doesn't take a minute to have faith in someone, it's not even an hour to trust people.... at least it took one day and most people takes a lifetime to trust and have faith with someone..... but it takes only a single minute that trust can somehow vanish, and then a lifetime to start building up the trust again...."



i peep thru someone's blog today, afta a long time all that disaster took place and shit my name, that i promised to stop readin her blog.... i just made a random visit just to know what's happening there.... i've been wondering, are you refering your thought to me???? i'm sorry if u get knocked by my previous2 post, but sincerely i didn't intend to.... i just wana cry out my happiness and share with others.... i'm sorry if i hurt ur feeling.....



u'r afraid what if the beautiful days of mine fades away too???..... yes, frankly speaking i'm afraid if it going to happen.... maybe not this time, but tomorow, or month and years later.... or maybe he'll regret for his entire life with his decision in choosing me, n to let u down.... who knows????? yes, u've been "frd" and having close relationship with him for 6months, and i guess i's real hard for both of u to forget all those memories...people always have their own secrets..... they always cheat on others to protect themselves..... and if that ever gg to happen that proves to the whole world i'm the stupid one, i'm the one who had being fool.... my life definitely has been wasted for 4years loving him (plus another 2years, i hold the feel that i like him without his knowing)......

abang ala (noorshahalal).... he's my only bro, he can read me..... he just pretend he didn't know wut happened...

let me tell u pple, there's nothing special about me... to compare me with her, i admit she's far too good, pretty, very easy gg.... i'm the bumi and she's the langit.... i'm the pipit, she's the enggang.... told u all the truth, it's me who fall in love with him at my very first sight.... and it's not his attempt to be so serious with me at first.... i'm so pathetic..... my abg syuk once told him the secret that i like him... .... but then he aproached me and we just love each other and i do hope the bless from everyone.... pls... don't put our relationship at a stake again.... i had enough, i lost count people.... i just want to cherish my life with the guy i love, and i do hope he's being honest 100% tis time.... i'm giving him the last chance...



i'm building up again my faith and trust, it's not easy ok since several time it had been broke and vanished.... i had enough tears, he cried twice for his mistakes n begging me to forgive him.... so, pls.... i hate that i love him so much......



i promised him last nite to make several types of kuih raya today since i got one day off, but i'm in no mood rite now... i'm sorry dear....

we had a big fight just the day before we flew back to moscow.... we both cried like hell.... i gave my last word n let

him do the decision....

i didn't force him.... he made his own decision...