learning... a never ending process

i am so not in the mood..... i dunno why am i so sensitive, why am i always make the same mistake, why am i soooo easily get mad at this such small thing.... this crisis inside me will never ever fade because when i like sumthing, when i love sumbody, i will do with all my heart.... dare to talk bad about it, but just do it behind me... pls don't let me know.... i can't bare people call it with such name, i just can't... and that caused me reacted soo wrongly, i am not mad, i just don't know how to handle myself, how to control my feeling....

and i learned a lot from what happened... the problem is not with these things or those people, the problem is me myself.... i really think i don't need to be pampered, i indulge myself thoroughly in that dreams and rite now i'm thinking it's the perfect time for me to come out from the comfort zone... nobody can change me if i'm not willing to, but if i do so i just have to do it myself....

"kemaafan adalah dendam yang terindah.....

maaf dan memaafi segalanya kan menjadi indah"

(memetik kata2 dari seseorang)