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Thursday, April 10, 2008

learning... a never ending process

i am so not in the mood..... i dunno why am i so sensitive, why am i always make the same mistake, why am i soooo easily get mad at this such small thing.... this crisis inside me will never ever fade because when i like sumthing, when i love sumbody, i will do with all my heart.... dare to talk bad about it, but just do it behind me... pls don't let me know.... i can't bare people call it with such name, i just can't... and that caused me reacted soo wrongly, i am not mad, i just don't know how to handle myself, how to control my feeling....

and i learned a lot from what happened... the problem is not with these things or those people, the problem is me myself.... i really think i don't need to be pampered, i indulge myself thoroughly in that dreams and rite now i'm thinking it's the perfect time for me to come out from the comfort zone... nobody can change me if i'm not willing to, but if i do so i just have to do it myself....

"kemaafan adalah dendam yang terindah.....
maaf dan memaafi segalanya kan menjadi indah"
(memetik kata2 dari seseorang)

14 love:

Mrs. Sheikh said...

shieda,
semua org termasuk i
pernah rasa ape yg u rasa nih..
mmg susah nak kawal..
perasaan hati,fikiran
ntah ape2 la kan...

jgn sedey2 tau....
nanti tak comellll :)

Yatie said...

shieda... tak mau marah2... cedih2.. kata nak blanja pizza... hehe...

Jom kita enjoy..

ita.itu said...

kena maafkan ke..hehe?

Aleeya said...

shieda..nape ni ..jgn marah2 ekk..calm down..minum segelas air..pastu shieda senyummm, senyuman shieda tu akan menyejukkan hati shieda n org lain tawwwww, awek cute senyom mestila cun kan hehe

tiffany said...

mrs.sheikh---<@ it's true, to get rid of these feeling is not such an easy job.... nway, i'm occay now... thanx husna for concern...


yatie---<@ ok yatie, dgr pizza aje i melonjak bangun dah ni... i nak g siap2 jap, nnt i amik u ok...


ita.itu---<@ ntahla kak, susah den nak pk ni... hihi...


aleeya---<@ yaya, i nyaris2 nak buat sebijik kek lagi dok layan perasaan tak best ni... pastu i g kuar jap jalan2 kat supermarket n dok borong sume mknn fevourite yg menggemkkan, termasuklah aiskrim DOVE.... hehe... pastu ok dah... n i senyum balik dah...

Ziana said...

sheida cayang..
nape nih?
xmo sesedih ek?

meh story meh..
ziana pon not in da good mood :(

Aleeya said...

he he camtu la..
mmuuahhhhhhhhh
yaya cyg shiedaaaa

*wink*wink

pearlEJ said...

laaa nape lak neh yang?? nape sedih2 neh??

tiffany said...

ziana---<@ huhu, sumthing came over and i was obviously mad bout it.... but to let it away, i'll just keep it to myself... thnx ziana... nape ziana pon sesedey gak??? tgh musim kot sekarang ni... huhu...


aleeya---<@ hikhik... mmmuaksssssssss.....
cayang yaya jugak...


pearlej---<@ huhu.... sedey sikit la kak, tapi dah ok dah ni...

pu3nemo said...

yo0o babe!
lebiuuuuu....
mauhhxxx,
if need sm1,fara de k..

nads said...

shieda...
nad pun kekdg akan rase gini...
sian org lain yang jadi mangsa kan...
xpe2...kalo nad tensi n rase down sgt...nad akan g mkn...xpun sopping ape yang nad nak...huhu...

org pom pan ginilah shieda...
ade mase emosi tak stabil...
;)

tiffany said...

pu3nemo---<@ hey babe... lebiu too... mmmmuachhhh.... thnx cayunk...


nads---<@ huhum sbb tensyen sgt ,mase tu, trus masuk dalam comforter and tdo 2 jam.... mogok tak mkn... bgn2 lapar, carik mknn jap... pastu tensyen lagi campur boring lagi, g kdai jap nak carik bahan buat kek, tapi tup2 beli makanan yg menggemokkan... trus mood baik dapat beli ceklat, yogurt, and sekerim... hehe...

Princess Redbloodsnow said...

Lalinkkk...sumtime kan lalink
we DONT HAVE to keeps on blaming ourself for all the chaos had been made up

sometimes it IS course by others...
When we keeps on blaming ourselves..
the self esteem akan jadik very low
If we felt n think we're in the rite side
Just dont blaming on ourself in the end of it,k lalink

bcoz i always behave this kinda of way
keeps on blaming myself at the end of it
and when peeps know about it...what would they do???
dorg akan pijak kepala kite even more
and i dont want what had happened to me...will happen to u

Sometimes the faults really are belongs to others
not belongs to us....cayunkkkkkk kamo ida!!!
dont be sad2 lagi ea...

tiffany said...

redbloodsnow---<@ thanx lalink for a great reminder... ida selalu keliru who's responsible for the mistakes... if i don take the blame, then it'll go nowhere... and it's a real hard to let people blame themselves on things that they did caused... i found it easier to blame myself on others and the things will stop there...
huhuhuhu... payah kan...

but i'll take ur words, i need to learn more and more, and get ready to face out the world... i need to be tough and rigid to enter the new life onward later,...

cayang kamo juga zie...